Ah I am so upset ,
even my dbsk cant cheer me up .
For one wrong decision I made ,
I have to face the music .
Its just so ironical ,
you thought you made the best choice in your life ,
turns out to be the scariest horribiest mistake .
It haunts you day and night , causing you insomia
It makes you feel insercure , demoralised , lost .
I thought I was overreacting and depression was just a term to blow it up
I dont know how big a mess I've caused ,
and I certainly dont know how to clear this shit up .
Those friends I made , gosh , lets see their real colours
When Im happy , and joke , make them lol whtev
they treat me like best pals
When I fail , emo , cry .
they say I overreact .
GAWD , HOW DUMB CAN I BE TO MAKE THOSE FRIENDS
Those crapped up ones who joke with you
& then forget you immediately after they lol
OH I HATE THOSE 2 FACE PEOPLE ,
if I was not wrong ,
I joined it becos you 2 of my "extremely bff nerd pals" were in it
You guys just , theres no words to describe how deciteful you are
I mean if you dont wanna be friends , just bloody f say it
I can mix with other people and find common interest and hobbbies
You guys just continue to live in your patheticly small word
where your life is just filled with rainbows bunnies and dandelions
Such hypocrites , I rather you guys approach me face to face
then to kill me silently and slowly with your actions
You guys are just overly insensitive to others
which have alr reached indifference
But cos of you guys ,
I will laugh my ass off cos I deserve it :D
I wont be bothered by your silly actions ,
stupid laughter , foolish thoughts
COS I WILL SMILE
I WILL FIND MY OWN CLINQUE
FRIENDS THAT WILL MAKE SMILE LIKE THE SUN
FALL OUTTA BED SING LIKE THE BIRD
DIZZY IN MY HEAD SPIN LIKE A RECORD
CRAZY ON A SUNDAY NIGHT
DANCE LIKE A FOOL
FORGET HOW TO BREATHE
SHINE LIKE GOLD AND BUZZ LIKE A BEE
FRIENDS THAT WILL BRING OUT THE BEST IN ME
PLEASE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ALR
I NEVER FELT THIS HELPLESS BEFORE ,
ALTHOUGH GOD HAS ALREADY BAILED ON ME
MY PARENTS ALR GIVEN UP
I WILL STILL SMILE :D
I STILL HATE YOU THOUGH , LOSER
YOU GUYS WERE THE ONE WHO USED TO MAKE ME SMILE ,
ONCE
6:31 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
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Ah I am so upset ,
even my dbsk cant cheer me up .
For one wrong decision I made ,
I have to face the music .
Its just so ironical ,
you thought you made the best choice in your life ,
turns out to be the scariest horribiest mistake .
It haunts you day and night , causing you insomia
It makes you feel insercure , demoralised , lost .
I thought I was overreacting and depression was just a term to blow it up
I dont know how big a mess I've caused ,
and I certainly dont know how to clear this shit up .
Those friends I made , gosh , lets see their real colours
When Im happy , and joke , make them lol whtev
they treat me like best pals
When I fail , emo , cry .
they say I overreact .
GAWD , HOW DUMB CAN I BE TO MAKE THOSE FRIENDS
Those crapped up ones who joke with you
& then forget you immediately after they lol
OH I HATE THOSE 2 FACE PEOPLE ,
if I was not wrong ,
I joined it becos you 2 of my "extremely bff nerd pals" were in it
You guys just , theres no words to describe how deciteful you are
I mean if you dont wanna be friends , just bloody f say it
I can mix with other people and find common interest and hobbbies
You guys just continue to live in your patheticly small word
where your life is just filled with rainbows bunnies and dandelions
Such hypocrites , I rather you guys approach me face to face
then to kill me silently and slowly with your actions
You guys are just overly insensitive to others
which have alr reached indifference
But cos of you guys ,
I will laugh my ass off cos I deserve it :D
I wont be bothered by your silly actions ,
stupid laughter , foolish thoughts
COS I WILL SMILE
I WILL FIND MY OWN CLINQUE
FRIENDS THAT WILL MAKE SMILE LIKE THE SUN
FALL OUTTA BED SING LIKE THE BIRD
DIZZY IN MY HEAD SPIN LIKE A RECORD
CRAZY ON A SUNDAY NIGHT
DANCE LIKE A FOOL
FORGET HOW TO BREATHE
SHINE LIKE GOLD AND BUZZ LIKE A BEE
FRIENDS THAT WILL BRING OUT THE BEST IN ME
PLEASE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ALR
I NEVER FELT THIS HELPLESS BEFORE ,
ALTHOUGH GOD HAS ALREADY BAILED ON ME
MY PARENTS ALR GIVEN UP
I WILL STILL SMILE :D
I STILL HATE YOU THOUGH , LOSER
YOU GUYS WERE THE ONE WHO USED TO MAKE ME SMILE ,
ONCE
6:31 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
{ I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky }
note! Self confessed shoppaholic
Name:CherylY.Xinpei
Age: NIL
Birth date:101096
Born in:Greenland
Raised in: Paris
Current residence: Uzbekistan
Nationality: Cheenalish
Horoscope Sign: That weighing scale thang
Personality: Lesbian
Current hairstyle: Black ?
Fashion style:clothes
Spoken languages: English,cheenalish gibberish horneyish
Learning languages: German, Spanish
Instrument: Piano
Significant-other: SIDDHARTA GAUTAMA
{ WISHES }
1. Roam the streets of paris
2. Die of eating
{ FAV BANDS }
1. SHINEE
2. FOB
3. Boys Like Girls
4. Muse
5. Cinema Bizarre
6. Linkin Park
7. Bullet for my Valentine
8. Fall Out Boy
9. My chemical romance
10. Evanescence
11. All-American rejects
12. Red jumpsuit apparatus
{ FAVORITES }
Favorite Food: I'm a fast food kid!
Favorite Music genre:WHATS A GENRE
Favorite Actor: KIM HYUN JOONG
Favorite Actress: GOON HYE SUN
Favorite Movie genre: TEEN FLICK
Favorite Movies: School of rock, paranoid park, she's the man
Favorite Soccer player:
Favorite Countries: Spain, England
Favorite Cities: Barcelona, London
Favorite colors: Grey , turquoise
{ NETWORK }
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