I back and I totally forgot why I came here , lol .
So whteva , lifes pretty much monotonous and boring ,
but I like it , its blissful .
Im a pretty sentimental and emotional person ,
I just cant show it .
My heart is broken so many time that its numb ,
I try to cover up my wounds with a smile , fake .
I want to be remembered as the girl who could brightened up peoples day
though she couldnt brightened up her own .
I feel inferior , really .
I feel that lifes just a mad rush of emotions and Im losing myself soon .
I really dont know , I just made like that ,
2009 is a rollarcoaster .
I changed so much I dont regconize myself anymore ,
the more you earn , the lonier you get .
You realise you cant trust anyone in reality ,
cos they will just bring you hopes up and then shatter it without flinching
They pretend that they really care for you ,
then they leave all alone during your darkest period
and when you're fine , they joke with you like
you're their bffz .
Those people are shiny on the outside ,
but dull colourless and insensitive inside .
They are awesome and fun to joke with ,
but when you look closely ,
are these people true friend material ?
Or are they just some people that just apppear in and out of your life ,
using you , and playing with your feelings .
Those are the people I detest ,
why are they so fake ?
OMG LOL , I JUST MADE A EMOTIONAL POST
THAT I JUST RANDOMLY THOUGHT OF
HAH JAZ , YOU SAID I CANT WRITE DECENT SAD POST
LUL AT YOUR FACE WITH A L ON MY FOREHEAD .
www.brokenheartville.blogspot.com if you want
some free cheegue and taugey ..
forjust50cent (plus kopi o and watermelon)
kthxbai , pawned you guyz
4:39 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
Aishhhh !
Its monday all over again ,
suckazye to wake up at such unearthly hour D:
SUHCK .
SO YEAH , anyway I go to school to fangirl /
and then .. sleep ,
I cant wait to grow up yozah ,
:D charlie waittttttt
4:05 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
Ah I am so upset ,
even my dbsk cant cheer me up .
For one wrong decision I made ,
I have to face the music .
Its just so ironical ,
you thought you made the best choice in your life ,
turns out to be the scariest horribiest mistake .
It haunts you day and night , causing you insomia
It makes you feel insercure , demoralised , lost .
I thought I was overreacting and depression was just a term to blow it up
I dont know how big a mess I've caused ,
and I certainly dont know how to clear this shit up .
Those friends I made , gosh , lets see their real colours
When Im happy , and joke , make them lol whtev
they treat me like best pals
When I fail , emo , cry .
they say I overreact .
GAWD , HOW DUMB CAN I BE TO MAKE THOSE FRIENDS
Those crapped up ones who joke with you
& then forget you immediately after they lol
OH I HATE THOSE 2 FACE PEOPLE ,
if I was not wrong ,
I joined it becos you 2 of my "extremely bff nerd pals" were in it
You guys just , theres no words to describe how deciteful you are
I mean if you dont wanna be friends , just bloody f say it
I can mix with other people and find common interest and hobbbies
You guys just continue to live in your patheticly small word
where your life is just filled with rainbows bunnies and dandelions
Such hypocrites , I rather you guys approach me face to face
then to kill me silently and slowly with your actions
You guys are just overly insensitive to others
which have alr reached indifference
But cos of you guys ,
I will laugh my ass off cos I deserve it :D
I wont be bothered by your silly actions ,
stupid laughter , foolish thoughts
COS I WILL SMILE
I WILL FIND MY OWN CLINQUE
FRIENDS THAT WILL MAKE SMILE LIKE THE SUN
FALL OUTTA BED SING LIKE THE BIRD
DIZZY IN MY HEAD SPIN LIKE A RECORD
CRAZY ON A SUNDAY NIGHT
DANCE LIKE A FOOL
FORGET HOW TO BREATHE
SHINE LIKE GOLD AND BUZZ LIKE A BEE
FRIENDS THAT WILL BRING OUT THE BEST IN ME
PLEASE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ALR
I NEVER FELT THIS HELPLESS BEFORE ,
ALTHOUGH GOD HAS ALREADY BAILED ON ME
MY PARENTS ALR GIVEN UP
I WILL STILL SMILE :D
I STILL HATE YOU THOUGH , LOSER
YOU GUYS WERE THE ONE WHO USED TO MAKE ME SMILE ,
ONCE
6:31 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
AHHHHHHHHHH ! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
I WILL USE THIS USELESS BLOG OF MY FOR MY USELESS RANTINGS
ABOUT KPOP STARS , ZOMG , THE THOUGHT OF IT MAKES ME GO BOOMBOOMPOW
OMO , MY WALLPAPER IS OUR DEAR DBSK CHANGMIN WAVING , ZOMONA
MY HEART IS FLUTTERING LIKE A HAMMER AND ITS GOING TO EXPLODE
HES SO CUTE , WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ?? OMGOMGOMGOMGOMOMG
MY SCREENSAVER IS SIWON , OMO , IM SO PROUD OF HIM ,
GOD IS SO PROUD OF HIM , LETS ALL SAY AMEN !
JESUS LOVES HIM AS MUCH AS I DO :D , LETS GIVE THANKS FOR HIM
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGOMGGGGGGG HERO JAEJOONG OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
HOTTEST ASIAN GUY RANKED BY BEN XIAO JIE , OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG FT ISLAND *faints*
*wakes up to see SJ* OMG YOU KNOW THE DREAM CONCERT .
IT.IS.ON.MY.BDAY. HOOOT YO
10/10.SHIM CHIO MAH CHIO EH SHIM CHIO (10 outta 10) OMG 2PM
AHHHHHHHHHHH , OKAY , I HAVE TO DO MY MEASUREMENTS FOR MRSHOBE
AH , IF ONLY SHE WAS AS HOT AS SNSD , THAT WONT BE A PROBLEM
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOGMOGOGM MY CHANGMIN IS WAVING AT ME . AHHHHHH I CAN HUG MY PHONE TO SLEEP TONIGHT
OKAY IM SUPER UBER HAPPY I DONT NEED A UNICORN WITH LILLIES ON A
CLOUD WITH APPLES AND PEACHES FROM GEORGIA ,
I DONT NEED A CHARLIE UNDER MY BED
I DONT NEED A SPEAKER UNDER MY PHONE (oh yes i do , to play my koreah songs baby)
I DONT NEED A MIC ON MY NAIL CLIPPER
I JUST NEED THE LAST TRAIN TO KOREA , HOOT
I JUST NEEEEEEEEEEEEED YOU , OMG
I JUST THOUGHT OF BIG BANG , LAST FAREWELL OMG
I KNOW WHY PEOPLE ARE GENERALLY HAPPIER IN KOREA
EMO=UNHEALTHY
UNHEALTHY=FAT FOOD
FAT FOOD=MACS
MACS=MAC VALUE LUNCH WITH STUDENT RATES
VALUE LUNCH=SAVE $$
SAVE $$=HELPING THE ECONOMY,SAVING THE WHALES
EMO=HELPING THE ECONOMY ANF SAVING THE WHALES OMG
LETS ALL GIDY UP TO KOREA TO SAVE THE YOUNG INNOCENT MINDS OF
UNTOUCHED CHILDREN THAT HAVE NOT BEEN AFFECTED BY KOREAN STARS
IF NOT THEIR WORLDS WILL BE DAZED , NO LIGHT IN THE TUNNEL
LETS JUST SAY GOODBYE
PARTING IS OHSOBITTERSWEET RIGHT MY OPPAS?
I WILL GO KOREA ONE DAY , INFINDLY YOURS SEOUL .
I SAW THE COMMERCIAL , AND DBSK WAS PERFORMING
MY HEART LEPT TO MY THROAT AND FELL INTO MY EARS
THUMPTHUMPTHUMP , I KNEW .. KOREA WAAS MY NEXT DESTINATION
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IM SO BLINDED BY MY CAPS I THINK I SHOULD STOP
IT HURTS SO BAD
I JUST NEED A PLANE TICKET
7:35 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
IM SO SORRY BUT I LOVE YOU
HAJI SI MAI ,
IM SO SORRY
BUT I LOVE YOU
NAM MODO MODI ANGMOKIO
SHIM CHIO MAR CHIO SHIM CHIO .
LALALALALA PRETTY BABY .
LALALALALA BE MY LADY
LA LA LA LA BAH RAWR BANG CRASH -meow-
NOOMO NOOMO YUP CHIO
BODEE BODEE WHOOP CHIO
SAMA SAMA DE LALA ONG NO
GEE GEE GEE GEE BABYBABYBABY
AGAINANDAGAINANDAGAINANDAGAIN
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .
12:40 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
I.AM.A.SUCIDE.KID.
I AM SO FKING PISSED WITH MYSELF .
MY FKING FKED UP BROTHER
RIPPED MY MATHS HW INTO SHREDS
ITS FRIGGING MATHS
YOU KNOW I HATE MATHS ,
I HARDLY DO MATH HW ,
AND RARELY TOUCH MY MATH TB
WHY THE FK MATHS ?
I HAVE NO FKING MOOD TO EVER TOUCH MY MATHS HW/TB AGAIN
SO IF I FRIGGING PHAIL MATHS ,
ITS YOUR FRIGGING FAULT YOU AHOLE :D
OMG IM SO PISSED I CAN SHOVE MY TOILEY BOWL UP YOUR MF ASS .
AH , SHUCKS YOU MY LITTLE LADY .
FOR THROWING MY HW / CORRECTION TAPE
AND CALLING ME AND YOUR MUM A IDIOT ,
FK YOU FOR THAT .
DOUBLE EW SEE KAY MY DEAR ,
SINCE YOU ARE SO STUPID YOU CANT SPELL .
OMG YOU ARE DUMBSHIT TOILET ,
KISS MY ROYAL SWEET ASS PLEASE .
6:33 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
We had our ups and downs , but its a fact I cant live without you .
:D .
Izen :D
Remiscing my zilian days , lian to max
Sorry if they blinded you , my bad
-starts singing sorrysorry by superjunior-
To Adam Lambert ,
peace out :D
4:09 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun
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